The Agony of Weigh Day

Wednesdays for Ryan & I aren't just about being halfway through the week & that much closer to the weekend, they also represent "Doom Day", the day we weigh or weigh & measure which we alternate. Thank God this day only comes once a week. I don't think I could take it more often than that. My highest weight was 249 & as I mentioned before I lost 26 of that & got down to 223 in a year not changing a whole lot. So I started working with Audrey in January weighing 223. Ryan started with her at 279. His highest weight was 290. This week it's just weighing & as long as 249 & 290 stay away, we'll be doin' alright!

This morning as I was preparing to weigh, while muttering a stressed prayer under my breath & hoping for the best, I was wondering how Ryan's weigh in went since he had to leave for work before 5am. We have done pretty well up to this point, well, except for my break down a few weeks ago at the agony of only losing ONE pound. He was sweet & supportive & kept telling me "It's still a loss", which I knew but when you feel like you're killing yourself & trying to do well eating (& missing all the yummy fattening stuff) & end up with only one pound, well it's a bit disheartening to say the least & it happened to me two weeks in a row. Ugh. Ryan made the comment to me last night that he was somewhat nervous about the weigh in today & was hoping to see some movement on the scale, in the right direction. He's been struggling this last week with missing foods. Good to know I'm not the only one!
I stepped on & that stupid little needle stopped at 206. Damn. Only 2 pounds. Wait, that's one more than one! Yeehaw! Still, I would have loved to see myself under 200. That's a bit lofty right now I suppose. I will get there, one stinkin' pound at a time if I have to and, on the bright side I only need to lose 7 more to be there. I texted Ryan. His didn't change. Stuck at 251. It was my turn to be the strong encourager. I know he won't quit but I know that sinking feeling too. So from now till next Wednesday we'll work harder & change up calorie intake & see what happens. Plus we measure next week. Sometimes seeing the numbers change on that tape is almost as good as seeing it on the scale. If Ryan does next week what he's done before & ends up with a 5 pound or more loss for a week he may not live to be talked about in another blog. Unless I too have a good week & then I'll hug him & kiss him & keep my "other plans" to myself...